To admit: this is your life

I have no good temper, and am an optimistic pessimist. Always praise and give courage to the others but not myself. How can I think positively ? I dont know?!
Just feeling very bad because of the events happened recently.

Thanks to my dearest friend who is willing listen to me and give me good advices.

Have a nice journey, and I will find you next year.

Soon to start my new life, with all the things change.